Neither tool nor slave.

i am not your tool;
i am not your slave;

so just freaking stop using me.

I'm afraid that you will realise my feelings to you;

i thought my feelings would never be known to you.
but i find it harder and harder to hide my feelings as the days passed.
i dunno whether have you started to realise my feelings.
cos i'm making my feelings for you;
a little too obvious.



i was supposed to blog yesterday, but i fell asleep:(
and ppl are urging me to blog abt what happened ytd!
so here's the post! :D

lessons was boring ytd.
spent most of my time at the rooftop cafe and i just keep on snapping random shots.
thr's photog, but Mr. P wasnt here yet, and we (me, nisa and dashy who just came cos her shooting practice was cancelled) were freaking bored. :X
but we managed to leave early!
*muahahaha*

me and dashy went to JP!!!
i went to collect my Jay Chou's new album---跨时代~!
i love it:) the cover looks so cooooool~
and then both of us just walk around JP.

we passed by chewy jr. and prima deli on the way, so dashy decided to buy her chewy jr. and i decided to eat prima's CHICKEN PIE (which is freakinggggg awesome!)
but i had totally embarrased myself infront of prima deli when dashy offered me her chewy jr.!!!!!
when i took a bite, all the creamy stuff "dropped out"?! (idk how to describe it) but the end product was that the cream was on the floor, on my fingers and my dslr bag.
and all this happen infront of prima deli and tonns of ppl were walking by thinking, "that girl is such as loser, she cant even eat properly!"
OMO. one word. EMBARRASING!!!

we faster left that area and just continued to walk around JP, dashy popping into floral shops, hoping to get a prezzie for her friend:)
at first in history lecture, i was telling dashy and nisa i had a craving for subway.
thus, when both of us decided to head our way to subway, we passed SWENSENS.
and now they are sort of having a promotion whereby a food item and free flow of drinks cost you S$9.80 and two ice-cream for just S$9.80 as well!:)

as you would have expected already, both of us went in :)
thinking that subway set can also go up to 7-8++ bucks, we decided to eat swensens:D
i ordered chicken baked rice while dashy ordered pizza.
in addtion to that, we ordered the fries.
and in addition to that, we ordered ICE-CREAM!!!
after my constant persuasion and trying very hard to brain-wash dashy, we ordered ice-cream!!:D MY FAVOURITE COOKIE SUMMIT!!!

but the fact is that, when we were eating our meals, we were already like full to death!
and there was still ice-cream!
we cant really decide whether to cancel the ice-cream order...
cos i rlly wanna eat the ice-cream, but my heart and eyes are not cooperating with my stomach!
my stomach was already like raising the white flag, protesting not to feed him any more food.
but my heart really wants it badly, like really badly.
so in the end, we still ate the ice-cream!:)

the main pt is that, we ate like crazyyyyyy ytd.
2 pratas in sch>ruffles potato chips>chewy jr. (for dashy)>chicken pie>our swensens meal>fries>ice-cream.

after tt, we decided to take the bussie home and as we walked to the interchange, we met val.
val was w8ing for her friend, luven. (ok, i'm not sure if the spelling is correct)
she suggested to w8 for him a while, and go home tgt.
but i was like groaning and moaning saying tt the train would be pack as it was already 6 plus as we missed our train.
then val came up with this really stupid, stupid, stupid (val emphasized me to type x3) idea of taking the train all the way to joo koon and take back.
it was meant to be a joke, but dashy and luven agreed to it and we happily ride to joo koon and then back home.
how retarded can we be?!?!

but it was really fun when the mrt was like empty and we began to take various funny shots!
like luven slping on the whole stretch of empty seats!!!
hahaha~

ytd was i think one of the most interesting days so far!!!
and i will upload the pics we took ytd on FB soon:)

gonna do my IH, econs and GPP already:)
ciao ppl!!!

So close, yet so far. Just like me and you.

the worst feeling you'll ever feel is sitting next to the person who means the world to you knowing that you mean nothing to them.



FINALLY BROUGHT MY DSLR OUT TODAY!!!
it was so freakingggg shiok to have my darling dslr and just keep on snapping and snapping and snapping!
it was like the best thing ever~!

i think i took around 130 odd shots today just in school and another 40 odd shots when i was out with dashna at Orchard Ion.
the aim to go ion?
to eat my beloved TAKO YAKI~!
i just loveeeeeeee their tako yaki!
i'm on my way in accumulating my second carddddd!

went shopping with dashna around ion.
and dashna was like so obsessed by this black dress she saw in NEW LOOK, she wants to match anything and everything that goes well with that particular black dressie.
we totally cant resist the temptation to buy some stuff in ART BOX when everything there is so freaking cuteeeeee~
and how awesome can i be to spend money again on notebooks when i think when all my notebooks are laid side by side to each other, it can go one round around the globe!
i just cant stop buying stuff, even when i'm like a freaking poor kid.

in conclusion, i'm a shopaholic.
and i think there's nothing that i can do to change it, except to get more MONEYYYYY~!
people, please donate to the "WENLIN CROSS DONATION FUND"!

okay, enough of all my crap.
gotta do GP now:(

P.S. photos taken in sch and at ion is uploaded in FB:)

Maybe I should just let go.

sad today:(
didnt got selected for the Australia trip and econs lecture test was super hard cos i nvr study for that question at all. like srsly at all. if i can pass econs, it will be something called a MIRACLE.

tmr's math test:(
i suckk at graphing:(
why a student's life revolves only tests and exams?!?

chye was like recommending this song by SHE recently.
it's called 爱就对了.
love some of the lyrics written:)

还没学会爱 就急着去爱人 而爱错人
自以为懂爱 才会又爱人 又伤害人
爱是对的 错的是我们

gonna start mugging again:X
ciao ppl~

My wish did not come true. Is it a sign telling me to let go? Because I do not want to hurt myself by loving someone whom doesnt know that I'm loving him at all.

My newest boyfriend: CANON EOS 550D!

okay, i know that i'm supposed to be mugging really hard for my econs test tmr.
especially since i failed it the previous time round.
but, i really wanna blogged about this!

DADDY BOUGHT ME MY DREAM DSLR~!!!
it's a CANON EOS 550D!!!

super happy about this and when i brought the camera back, i just keep on snapping and snapping like nobody's business.
mum was really pissed when i took lotsa unglam shots of her in what she say the "ugly clothes".

okay.
gonna stop.
really should start mugging.

P.S. WAITING TO BRING MY DSLR OUT WITH ME ONE DAY!:)

illusion is the only way i love you.

I didn't even realise you were behind me until I turned around.
I felt that you were so near. Your voice was so clear.
But, please stop giving me those fake messages that I am special to you.
Because I know that I am not, and never will.

Somebody or Anybody? Or am i just thinking a little too much?

now at the top of this ferris wheel, i will give you my promise.

this ring here represents my heart.
and i just need one thing from you.
Say "I Do."


Life was kinda sucky as usual???!
with all the lectures, tutorials and tests results!
got back my econs lecture test one.
as expected, i flunked for that test.
in addition to that, i flunked for my SEA history test which made my overall history result to fail as well.
so yupps, that's how sucky it can be.
thus, in conclusion, i may want to conclude myself as a "natural-flunker".

and thr's freaking NAPFA tmr!
the worse part of the week.
i would seriously rather have 10 hours of boring lectures/tutorials rather trying my best to freaking get a pass for NAPFA.
i'm not sports-inclined.
neither academic-inclined.

gonna continue slackkking since i have no mood for hw for the time being.
toodles~:)

You made me feel that I'm somebody to you, but yet by the next second I felt that I can be anybody. You made my life sucks even more cos i'm constantly thinking about you. that somebody whom will never realise how i feel.

Love or just infatuation?

Somebody save me before I drown into the sea of love.



It's Labour Day today!
And just as it's name suggest, i worked like a labourer today.

Went to buy my new sch bag cos my previous sch bags pronouced to be dead one by one.
But, I felt that I was a retard to actually go to freakinggg many places just to get one bag, yess, one freaking school bag.

I've actually wrote a longggg post previously, describing all the details, but i deleted it by accident.
And I think it would just add on to my "retarded-ness" to re-post all the details again.
Cut long story short, I went to AMK Hub-->Bugis-->Bugis Street-->OG Albert-->OG Orchard just to get my school bag, how retarded i was?!?!

People may ask why go to so many places. Reasons?
Simple. Cliched answers as follows.

AMK Hub: Design okay. Quality so-so yet freakinggg ex.
Bugis: Desired choice bag-simple but practical. But last piece on display. Mum suggested OG Albert where she saw the same bag.
Bugis Street: Look at the reason for AMK Hub. It's the same.
OG Albert: Desired choice bag OOS. Called other outlets.
OG Orchard: and finally got it!

This was made worse with longgggg hours of waiting, pain from heels and walking, dying temperature of 1000 degree celsius.
I was pissed, melting, frustrated, and concluding to be retarded by going through all this pain just to get my school bag.

But i was lucky in the end to have a life saviour, DADDY!
he drove me to OG Orchard to get my bag!:)
(otherwise, i would still have to squeeze with other ppl taking the bus/mrt to Orchard!)
Thanks Daddy:)

spent too much time slacking.
ciao.

Every year today, i will think of you. Thanks for the most beautiful memories you gave me. I appreciate it.

Geography "Rocks!" and Squad Outing:)

TGIF. And the last period of the day was geog tutorial was it totally "rocks!"
i put inverted commas because it has two meanings!
one being the fact that it really rocked as it was super interesting!:)
reason? because of ROCKS!
we had a tutorial on rocks and we now get to see and have hands-on some of the rare rocks!
Some of them are really beautiful!:)
the main purpose of the tutorial was to like identify the rocks, learn abt their traits and stuff.
but i ended up spending the time just taking photos of all the rocks instead!

had squad outing ytd with pling, lisa, weien, yy and hazel who just popped by!
we had our dinner at Ajisen and we just chat all the happenings in school and stuff.
but it sorta like ended earlier than i expected it to be.
looking forward to the next squad outing! :D

I miss my cliques, I miss my squad, I miss my class, I miss my teachers, I miss criticizing "her" = I MISS CRESCENT!!!!

I wish I could turn back the time...