Hours of chat, with only one thought in mind.

I'm glad that you were the last person i talk to before i sleep.

You just made my day complete.

Will you appear in my dreams? ♥♥♥

Restless

I am getting really restless.

I cant focus in studying or even actually starting revision.

And, I dunno the reason why.

I do not have the courage to tell you. That heart represents something.

It's Valentine's Day today! (:

Received prezzies and handmade food today! ^^

They say love is only a word until you find someone who gives it a definition. When will you give me mine?

有人说暗恋也许是一种美丽的痛苦。

也许我们之间，只能维持着这样的关系--朋友。

我好像能确定我有那么一点喜欢你，那么一点对你动心。

爱上你不需要任何的理由，可惜你永远都不会懂。

You confused me.

what was that for again? and from who? you lost me again;

Why do you have to do this all the time?

I was just about to convince myself that it was just another illusion,

when you blurred the line;

once again.

I wonder if he knows that he's all i think about at night.

that you might actually like me.

it has been a long time since i blog.

i'm making an excuse(s) here; busy with school work, PW, dramas..............

just changed my blogskin and revamped my profile page.

i love the new fuction whereby one can show & keep the profile page((((:

currently doing preparation for Shanghai OELP trip.

instead of finding more info about my pre-trip presentation and send it to shawn, i'm blogging :P

i gotta admit, it is difficult finding such info. *grrrr*

had fun for the past few days such as meeting up with pling & mx for mahjong and going to sentosa with A2 gals! ^^

have been very lazy this few weeks since i started watching IRIS.

abandoned this blog, my fanfic, plans for photography competition and the heaps of homework.

i guess it is the best just to lay down on my cozy bed and watch dramas (:

gotta start loooooooking for info before shawn holds a dagger & start killing me.

ciao.

I am shocked. I am heartbroken. But, I will move on.

This morning, I was in canteen with A2 girls after PE.

I switched on my lappie, logged on to FB and saw a breaking news.

like literally a breakinggg news of Jonghyun dating with Shin Se Kyung.

I couldn't believe it! I was like screaming!

I mean jonghyun-oppa is like dating someone, for real.

And, there weren't any precursors before this news.

It was seriously a big hoo-hah for me and peeps in school.

It really gotten me lil crazy since I kinda cannot get over it.

And, I was ranting everyone I know, telling them about this as well as on FB.

Some people won't get it why are we like this.

And I saw some comments saying that we Shawols are crazyy and blah blah blah.

I mean we really like SHINee, that's why we ARE feeling sth about this.

In my opinion, I feel that every Shawol has the right to feel heartbroken, sad, angry, pissed off, and whatsoever.

I mean at least for today.

I don't believe for all the fangirls out there, when your favorite idol is dating someone else, you can keep so calm and let it be so quickly.

Stop lying.

We, Shawol, had all sorts of feelings right now cos we really like our idols.

So those non-shawols out there, stop writing such hurtful comments out there.

But, I would not stop loving SHINee because of this thing.

I will still support SHINee.

I do agree with those who said that "it is their life", "if you really like them, you should allow them to love someone else too", etc.

But please, at least for the next 24 hours, just allow all the shawols to pour out their feelings.

I know to others it may sound totally insane, we are all just selfish and idiotic and childish.

Just like one of those genuine Shawols, we will definitely moved on, grow up and still give SHINee our support.

Can those stupid idiots just gave all the shawols at least 24 hours to rant over this thing?

I may be shocked.

I may be pissed off.

I may be heartbroken.

And, the recipe for that?

A few drops of tears.

A few pieces of tissues.

A few words of vulgarities.

The product?

"I'LL MOVED ON. "

I've moved on. I will still support them (including their gfs and future gfs if sudden news popped out again).

But, some ppl just irks me when they pretend to be saint, teaching me what i shld be.

Everyone has a different loving approach.

And, stop thinking that yours the best, cos it isnt.

I'm happy for jonghyun also, seeing him smiling so happily with his loved one.

it is just that some of the shawols needa more time to digest this breaking news.

I am trying my best to let go.

i should also learn to stop thinking about him.

finally back from school after the 2-day self-proclaimed break.
hope that i didnt get into trouble, at least for now. *phew*

had IH & GP lesson today along with 4 hrs of the Adam Khoo talk.

it was a pity that we didnt see Gary, and eventhough Danny was here, he did not take our class:(

he was so funny when he was at Crescent! *cutiegal16*

AHAHAHAHA.

tmr's lessons ending at 5 due to the sexuality talk as well:(

and we have to start preparing OP.

haiz.

busy weeeeek ahead.

You are the only one that will make me smile.

Promos are finally over!

But, obviously i did not do the papers well.

And, shall skip that part about promos!

Happy Stuff!

SHINee's MV- Hello is out in full version!!!! (:

I loveeeeeeeee this song, esp. the MV!

it is so sweeet!

i guess i still love the cute and adorable SHINee as compared to the beastly Lucifer-ish SHINee!

ciao!

gonna watch my dramas!!

Love is a choice you make from moment to moment.

I was supposed to study for my promos today!

But, apparently i was slacking the whole day, including yesterday.

I don't know what happened but I felt really tired and lazy to mugggg. :(

I wanted to blog today about something that made me happy (:

I actually posted my first chapter of the fanfic i wrote.

I was so surprised that once i updated the first chapter, people actually read it, subscribed and gave me positive comments.

I am so freakingggg shock!

I thought my readership will be like zero.

this encouraged me to continue writing the second and third chappie!

haiz:( but internet once again distract me!

i should really start mugging since i wasted most of the day already!

gotta mug!

cos if pling know about this, she's gonna scold me again :P

ciao! (:

September Birthday Babies

I know tmr's my GP Promo paper.

But, I just want to dedicate this post 2 people as it is their birthdays (((:

Firstly, it is WEI EN (((((((: who is born on 21st September 1993!

One of my close friends that I would never ever forget!

We are friends since we are like Primary 4?!?!

8 years of friendship is no kidding!!! ((((:

Being sisters/classmates/squadmates from CPS to crescent years, I seriously appreciate and enjoy the times with her!

The times we laugh together, the times we suffer together, the times we copy each other's work, the times we had our lunch at Orchard, the times we took neoprints, the times we watch movies together (esp. C+ Detectiveee! Will never ever forget that one!!!), the times we gossip, the times we share secrets, the times we discuss about our crushes...

There are so many "times" we had together! And, it was seriously the best!

One of the most touching things she did was when I was down, when I was feeling alone, she was there for me. When I was experiencing friendship problems, she actually was there for me, and even feeling the pain I was going through. I was really touched what she said at that time. (:

Eventhough, it is a pity that i am not in the same junior college as her, hope that we can still keep in contact!

Wei En, if you are reading this post, I would like to say:

I really appreciate you as my friend. And may our friendship last till the times we can have a bunch of children and still sit down together and chat about our life! Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! And, wish you all the best!!!! ((((:

Loves,

Wen

Secondly, it is to Key from SHINee who is born on 23rd September 1991!

I know you can't read this post!

But I still wanna wish you Happy Birthday! ((:

Really love you in SHINee!

Can't wait to see more of your diva-like performance in the future!!!!

Support OnKey couple and JongKey couple!!!! ((((:

Loves,

Fan-girl.

They are friends who i wish to treasure~

Had fun today!!! (((((((:

After geog lecture today, i invited farah, chahyeong, amira, zhuzhu, nisa and dashyyy to my house to have mooncakes! :D

all of us along with shawn and andrew took 198 home and we are superrrr noisy!

but, the bus journey home was definitely full of laughter especially with our birthday girl-zhuzhu!

hope that we didnt make anyone complain!

ate mooncakes (both the normal skin and snow skin) and had tea!

i finally got the chance to use the tea set i bought from china the other time:))

mummy ordered pizzas and we happily *munch munch* it all! :)

after eating, we decided to play mahjong at first.

but in the end when the gals saw my nail polish, they get really excited!

And we end up sitting down tgt on the floor, doing nails!

all of us painted in different colours!!!! :))))

it was so fun as we chat and do our nails together!!!!

hope that we can have more of such class gathering in the future!!!!!!

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

We always believe our first love is our last, and our last love is our first.

Dashyyy said she was a reader of my blog, and urged me to blog about something!
So here's the post~!

We just had one week of sept holidays and for me, it was nothing but just slack+PW.
Besides just going to Palau Ubin to conduct an interview, rushing to library and do PW, playing mahjong with friends, and shopping at New Look, I just surf the net and yuppies, watch videos!

Re-watched "The Academy" and was totally melting when i saw Fiona and Pak Kiu slowly falling in love((((((:
Also, watched Running Man during the start of the hols!
It's good to watch variety show by Jaesuk! As well as with other MCs!!! (:
With jaesuk around, there bound to be so much laughter!!!

Reunion with Crez peeps was great!
But, it made me miss them even more! T.T
The time we spent together was awesomeeeeee~!

One of the best part of the week is when i spent nearing 200 bucks of clothes in New Look! ((((((((:
It was just plain awesome to shop!!!
I'm so freaking happy with all the barang-barang i've bought!

It's start of the school today.
And, as usual I was dragging myself to school:(
Despite rushing like mad for GP hw ytd, we didnt even go through at all.
And the fact that i scored the lowest in the class for GP srsly made me feel really really down.
Especially, when the whole class knows about it. T.T

Also, I missed Nisa!
She's sick today and it was always fun with her around!!
Eventhough we would give this look -.-''' to her every single time when she say some really lame jokes, it just somehow makes school less boring! :P

Gonna rush my Econs homework!:(
There's tutorial tmr!
And i did none of the questions:(

toodles!

When I look at you my heart skips a beat. But later that beat could mean a lifetime of tears wasted on something I knew I could never have.

Have been really lazy and busy; not blogging.
In addition, there's really nothing much to blog about:(

Decided to blog today as I'm really in love with the new photo editing app-Photoscape!:)
Above is a picture I took pretty long ago and i just edited it with Photoscape!

Went to JE Lib and Macs at Tradehub 21 with peeps!
Not as productive as last week:X
There's still alot of things to do!!!!!

shall stop here!
ciaos!

I chose to escape from the reality that you do not like me.

When you told me I meant nothing to you
At first I was hurt and confused.
But then suddenly I was free
And relieved that I didn't have to live this lie any longer.

I'm having a hard time not loving you.

At this moment, I felt that I was special to you.
And by the next, I felt that I was nobody.


Just finished EOM.
Deadline's on Monday and yet i just finished it.
Why do people actually invented PW in the first place.
Hate it:X

Lecture Tests are coming up.
Should start mugging.
But nothing's driving me forward:(

Recently watched Raymond Lam and Tavia Yeung's new drama!
The Mysteries of Love!
Awesome HK drama!
When theories of physics are applied to the investigation of mysterious crime cases, entangled with complex love relationships!
Love it!:)
Mad Loves Kingsley!!! (Raymond Lam's name in the drama)

Anticipating more of Raymond Lam's dramas!:)

Okay, should start mugging for Econs.
Ciao~!


I hesitated to hold your hand.

I told myself times and times again to treat you just like anyone else.
I even tried to annoy you, ignore you, despise you.

But, it is difficult for me.
Especially when I know you are not just the ordinary.

You've have already been that someone.
Who is really special to me.

The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up

Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't, but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

school turned out to be pretty fun today:D
PE wasn't that tiring (?!) as I supposed since they are moving towards games.
and it come geog tutorial, which is actually O.O (skip that)
then, it was GP tutorial. okay, did some stuff as well.
then it was HISTORY TUTORIAL!
having a debate today! (and i was lucky enough not to get chosen *phew*)
it was really fun to see how the class debates and most of the time we burst out laughing!
it was awesome to see how each team argues their points out especially with good speakers from our class:)
enjoyed the lesson!:D
but the pre-requisite to a interesting debate/lesson? NEVER INVOLVE ME. I suck at it.

And, SHINee's second album is out:)
currently listening to the album^^

shall start do my hw.
toodles~

SHINee-oppa Comeback^^

SHINee oppa!SARANGHAE!!!
I'm totally awaiting for their comeback!
but then, I couldn't really adapt to their new hairstyle!
especially Key-oppa T.T!!!

Whatever it is, SHINee oppa HWAITING!!!


i should also seriously get back to work.
i'm so lateeeee for homework.
ciao^^

Loving you was my favorite mistake.

I tried my best to avoid your eyes,your smile,your voice
and most importantly,avoiding my heart that was beating;
only for you.


got back all my CT results.
it was bad.
like really bad.

i'm just praying hard that my overall would not fail that much subjects.
please, help me.
i dont wanna get scolded by my mum again.
17 years already.
and the scolding and nagging never end.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces.

And the moment you wander far from me, i wanna feel you in my arms again.

Haven't been really updating here as I'm seriously too busy in watching all the variety shows!:)
every single day, the moment i on my lappie, the first thing i would do is to check for more variety shows on WGM, SHINee (!!!!!) and Suju!:D
These are like my "To-do-list" EVERY SINGLE DAY, without fail.

Got back several CT results.
as expected, didnt do very well.
but i had to admit i did not really put in effort in studying during the june hols.
thus, if i can get like fab results, i wont be even studying jc now.
i would be like in so alien lecture hall, lecturing others instead.
okay, i know i'm blabbering irrelevant stuff again.

went to sungei buloh with jmy and colin for pw and it was fun!
the guides were really nicee and friendly.
and i'm easily amazed by every single thing there.
i've never see the "nature" so upclose. (or even take the time to see them though)
the croc that was sun-tanning was the classic and otters that were disturbing the croc from its sun-tanning should have won the oscar awards!

omo; i seeing a trend going over here.
i think i'm infected with "nisa virus".
i'm like her now; blabbering some random and really lame stuff.

nisa; see what you have done.

whatever it is, sch's tmr.
and i totally envy those JCs who are having hols tmr cos they are watching the world cup?!?!

TGIF. But SIBM.
ciao.